tooth soup

OK, so I’ve had a look back at yesterday’s events and I think I’ve come up with a theory why I’m not myself lately. Well, not quite a theory as such, but at least a couple (OK, quite a few) of reasons why I’m been acting kind of weird.

1) It’s the holidays. Long days with nothing else to do brings out the worst in me. I’m naturally inclined to being stressed and juggling a whole bunch of things at once.

2) There has not been a change in my life since the beginning of high school. No, seriously. I haven’t done anything, or been anywhere different for the past 5 years. It may or may not be finaly catching up to me. I’m not sure.

3) I’m trying to juggle three different personas. My ‘online’ one, my ‘around friends’ one and my ‘real’ one. I need to find a balance. This will come naturally however, so I’m not really that worried about it.

4) The Claire factor. She worries me, but not in a bad way.

Number one and number three I can’t do anything about, and they’ll eventually sort themselves out. But number two is something I’m going to work out during the semester break. I think I’ll go away, maybe by myself, maybe with a couple of the gang. Just to have a change in scene. Completely.

That leaves number 4. I think the main reason this worries me is that I haven’t really had a chance to sit down and talk with her. Not chat, talk. This can be remedied quite easily by simply arranging a date. Which is where my body starts going a little like this:
Brain:shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit
Heart:shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit
lungs:shitshitshitshitshitshitshitshit
appendix:doopydoopdoopdoopydoopdoopdoop.

I’ve always thought the appendix was a little slow on the uptake.
Anyway, I may be reading a little too much into this. I’ll leave it for a few days, try and relax and then come back to it. Hopefully then I’ll have a new perspective or something.

“Float Like a harpoon daily and nightly”

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